My Decorated Room

The lights are on, in the building
and they will remain so
as long as I'm here,
thinking and feeling.

I was told today that my heart
was too big
it gets that way
from trying too hard.

I never thought that my heart
was too big,
I thought it was a heart
just big enough
to hide myself in, leaving room
for a person or two.

In my heyday I had a lot of themes.
in my mind these dangle now
like wet crystals, 
pendant from a rooftop.
they tempt me to reach out too far
to grab them,
but the night outside is too cold,
and this side of the window is too comfortable.

but having a big heart
was not one of my decorated rooms.
I've had my eye on my mind
nearly all this time,
and that is where
I usually stay.